Saturday, July 18, 2009

A Lifetime Apart

Unfinished swally.. a rarity for me.

It was a rather grim faced man who sat in the chair that afternoon in the lounge bar of the pub in Possilpark. He made it a habit to come in around the back of three most Fridays, and anyone wanting to find him would know exactly where to look for their prey.

It wasn’t the best of areas that Glasgow had to offer, but ‘Driptray’ fitted into his surroundings with a manner of ease befitting such a man who had made deprivation his second home. The moniker ‘Driptray’ came about due to his rather unkind facial features. His narrow chin turned up to such a violent degree that it actually resembled the utensil attached to a bar and designed to catch the overflow of spilled beer.

It had been quite a while since anyone had mocked the gnarled looks of his coupon. The honed chib in each pocket had carved many a face, not to mention an appalling reputation for sickening violence. He wasn’t a respected man by any of the main players in Glesga at the time, but he did occasionally appear in their company whenever dirty work was required, or a ‘lesson’ needed to be taught.

In those days I had taken to wearing a heavy black leather coat. It was three quarters in length, and was usually worn over a dark item of clothing, much favoured by those of a certain ilk back in the day. ‘Drippy’ liked to wear his with the pocket linings removed, and a small bayonet nestled snugly against his side ready to be withdrawn whenever the occasion arose.

Unlike the traditional ‘collectors’ of that particular era, Drippy took satisfaction in the drawing of blood merely to boost his somewhat serious lack of self worth. It was not unknown for him to claim three separate slashing's in one night. To Drippy, it was all part of a good night out if he managed to destroy the face of anyone within his reach, and without so much as a flicker of conscience. He rarely gave thought to the lives he terrorised and destroyed.

He very quickly became a liability, and the job collecting the due fae those who had borrowed money from the lenders of Maryhill turned to farce. It was accepted that examples had to be made to those who refused to return the payments back to the original source, and Friday traditionally was the day of the ‘due’. Sadly for Drippy, he would be waiting outside of the bars on a Thursday neet, too early for many to have been in receipt of their pay.

It was a man fae Drumoyne that they sent to see Drippy. It was to be a friendly wee chat, but a stark warning all the same. The business of money lending didnae require such a heavy hand amongst what was on many occasions, just ordinary men fae the shipyards of John Brown and the Clyde sallying by. Drippy responded by taking out the man’s eye with his chib.

It was rumoured that he then went on and enjoyed a full meal... Nothing ever turned the stomach or the haund of young Drippy.

It was two weeks later when they came for him on a rainy Friday afternoon in December. As usual he sat in his usual company of one. Not even the regular beer-sodden oul tadgers would trouble him for the price of a pint. There was no a stray dog that would have warmed to the man with the cold flesh of a fish.

The Barlanark contingents are not known for their ability for friendly blather. It was always going to be business fae the moment they got out of the car with its still-running engine. Drippy should have guessed that something was amiss; it’s especially difficult to find an empty bar on a Friday in Glesga.


The barman, when asked, had been ‘busy’ in the other bar at the time of the arrival of those ‘unknown’ visitors that day.
It took minutes, if not seconds, for Drippy’s transformation fae man to real beast. The many slashes on his face, head and neck, had turned Drippy into ‘Stripey’, and a lesson was taught by those more skilled in the ways of the cald steel. The final insult was the permanent grin they carved on his face.

It had been a long time since anyone had ever seen Drippy with such a big smile on his face.

Thirty years on and I barely recognised the auld fella as he sat at the bar amongst the Glesga men in Kings Cross. The thinness of shoulders, the greyness of skin, I was all for buying that auld man a glass of whisky out of pity for his obvious dissoluteness of life. But then he smiled, and the corners of his mouth vanished deep into the sallow of his cheeks. It was then that I realised, that this man void of humanity was none other than Drippy himself.

We are both of the same age, but lifetimes apart.

I drank my own whisky, and left my unfinished pint on the bar. As I got up to leave, I silently gave thanks to a God I do not believe in. There for the grace go I.

45 heathens stopped here for a swatch.:

nursemyra said...

painful retribution

Jimmy Bastard said...

Life itself can be painful hen. It's how you heal that's important.

PI said...

Thank goodness/God you were redeemmed. Now if we can just get you on the ale without the chasers we'll have you for longer:)
You must have looked magnificent towering in your long leather coat.

Madame DeFarge said...

I too have met people from my past that remind me of what I could have been - although sometimes it's me that's the disappointment and not them. Your path may have been difficult, but your decisions have made you what you are.

That's from the school of stating the bleeding obvious. I just wish I hadn't made some decisions. It's that sort of weekend.

Eleanor said...

Small world, interesting coincidence, etc. I don't think that it's a bad thing to encounter "ghosts" now and then, though. I've also met a few over the years, who proved that some really smart choices followed some not so bright ones in my youth. Funny how those who seemed so strong then all look like rather pathetic creatures now. I don't mean that in a smug way, but rather, with a large pinch of gratitude for the enlightenment.

Jayne said...

*pictures Jimmy in a 3/4 length black leather coat* .............yay gads, you must've looked a sexy beast!
[coff]

Eleanor said...

Oh yeah, I forgot to mention the leather coat. What Jayne said.

*fans face*

JennyMac said...

First visit and absolutely love your writing.

mapstew said...

Small world indeed.

(The Band are known for our leather jackets round these parts.)

Jimmy Bastard said...

Pat: It's not called the water of life for nothing hen. Besides, I only partake on a weekend, I much prefer a pint.

As for the coat.. I still have it hanging on a peg deep inside the hoose. It's a living reminder of how things could have been.

Madame: You are always unusually deep with your thoughts whenever you return to your Debyshire retreat. Let me put right your current train of thought.

If I could change any one thing about you, I wouldn't change a single thing. What you see on screen with you is what you get in real life. Perfection. End of conversation.

Jimmy Bastard said...

Eleanor: Meeting ghosts has allowed me to continue to being part of the living. It's rare that the strong wans amongst us in youth continue unscathed into old age. Driptray is indeed a perfect example.

As for the coat.... you naughty girl!

Jayne: You're not so bad yourself doll. I'm still remembering that beautiful creature who stole the show at her sons wedding recently.

Oh yes... you thought I had forgotten.

Jenny: I could say the same about your place, magnificently entertaining, and guaranteed to pick up some of my regulars for sure. You share the same chosen careeer as my wife, so I can imagine you have many anecdotes to share.

Map: And here was me thinking that you and the band were just very well known for your 'parts'. I live and learn.

daisyfae said...

a small glimpse through a looking glass... good to see it from the non-toxic side.

Jimmy Bastard said...

Daisy, the only thing toxic is me this morning, fae my late night vindaloo supper.

I'm gonnae have to leave double the tips for my wonderfully efficient and understanding hotel maids..

Emerson Marks said...

Hello Jimmy. As I've said before, I've been to Glasgow once before. I enjoy listening to the sound of the Glasgow accent. Unfortunately I do have a tendancy to mimick it. Not to take the mickey you understand, but as I said, because I like the sound. Although if I were in the pubs you drink in I would try my utmost to refrain from that tendency - self preservation and all that.

Kim Ayres said...

So when did the shift happen Jimmy? Was there a major turning point, or did you just gradually move away from violent collector to erudite writer? Or have you always been both?

savannah said...

it's true, sugar...there but for the grace... a certain life, a certain time, all of it could have radically changed where we are now, but for that grace. it's good to remember and give thanks. xoxox

Jimmy Bastard said...

Emerson: The first biggest mistake an Englishman can make is when he fails to understand what 'see you' actually means. The second biggest mistake is to use the phrase 'Jock' at every given occasion. In certain areas of Glasgow, I would recommend that you kept well away. In other areas, as long as you were respectful, I'm sure you would be fine... probably.

Edinburgh is more tourist friendly.

Kim: It's no real secret as to why I turned the corner. I've described previously in an earlier post my experience of being shot. That was a major turning point for me of course, but the real reason was the loss of my child.

It's not something that I want go in to great details about. The feelings are still raw, even after all this time, and I may never be able to put into words the pain that still bubbles very near the surface of my every waking moments.

Suffice to say that it closed a very violent chapter in my life, but opened up the way for a new direction. There are some memories of my earlier life that have to stay hidden to protect other people.

I'm far from unique, but it was a hard price to pay for living in the city of no mean streets.

Jimmy Bastard said...

Savvy, Very true words hen. Every day above ground is one to be thankful for. It's not often people will see me down, there is far too much to be thankful about.

crazyrivergirl said...

Jimmy, I'm so glad you left that other life behind and became the man you are today.

Ron Knee said...

DRIPTRAY! (some kind o' underbite!)

Poor ol' fecker, Deserves a bit of love his way, probably niver had any in his life. Thass how it is, ye grow up in said environment and lives in said environment. Poor ol' fecker niver had anybody give him a fuckin' big hug in his life, that's all he knows. Probably wouldn't know how to handle a bit of true friendship if it jumped up and bit him on the airse. Poor aul fecker. Hard as nails but has to supress any feeling he has.

Poor aul fecker.

He has a drunken X from me, fuckim.

mapstew said...

Ron. ya big softee bollix!

The Unbearable Banishment said...

Well, that wasn't very friendly! You should have bought him a round, slapped him on the back and talked about the grand old days. So far away from home, he probably could have used a friend.

LL said...

I used to live in Paisley, so not Glasgow, but you could see it from there if you were in a balloon.

And in regard this blog post. I know precisely what you mean.

Jimmy Bastard said...

Girl: The mask sometimes slips, and I find myself looking to don the oul coat on occasion.

Ronnie: What a short memory you have.. was it not you driving the car?

Map: Uh huh.

LL: You'll understand the reasons, and be more aware than most people as to why you cannae be soft in Glesga. The mighty Erskine Bridge just down fae Paisley, has seen plenty of soft landings in the mud fae people who didnae heed the Barlanark boys.

UB: I didnae like him back then, I certainly wasn't gonnae pretend to be his best pal after the act itself. You're forgetting the reason why he was so far fae home.

Kerrie said...

You paint a great picture with words.
I often think, there but for the grace of god..

Jimmy Bastard said...

Kerrie, I doubt that we are alone in saying that phrase.

Kim Ayres said...

I remember the post about being shot - I think it was one of the early ones of yours I read. I didn't know about the loss of your child. By far the worst thing any parent can face. My heartfelt condolences, and apologies for stirring such memories.

tony said...

It's an odd place is London.....nowhere quite wears it's past on its sleeve in the way the Punters in dark London Pub do........
I lived in London for 3 years, so everytime i visit, i see Ghosts-Of-Who-I-Might-Have-Been.......

Scarlet-Blue said...

Oh lord - they turned him into the Joker.
I could have been much worse... or much better.
Good sense and a little luck.
Are you going to put a pic up of you in the coat? Just vaguely curious...
Sx

Jimmy Bastard said...

Kim: Nae apologies needed, I've shared more with you than most. Onwards and upwards pal.

Tony: London is vast, and the people seem cold to anyone else but their own. The thing is... who are their own? Glesga is tightknit, and most factions stick together when away fae home. I don't see that with the local boys so far.

Tis a shame...

Scarlet: I doubt you could have been any more likable than you already are hen. It's no a word that the likes of me use very often, but to describe you in a single word, I would have to say 'sweet'.

DQ's Windmill said...

No spite to shout, nor shite to spout.

Just don't feel much like doing my work today, and it's a good thing because I discovered two new blogs. Love your writing, and your accent. Although we got robbed in Glascow, still love the place, the people, and of course, the little Glenfiddich habit I picked up over there.

mapstew said...

Here comes That feckin' Monday agin Jim!

Leah said...

Hi Jimmy--I'm late here, just saying hello, sneaking some interwebs time in the dreadfulness of Texas--

It's just so reassuring to be able to drop by here, even far away from home as I am--

not to maunder on, sorry--you made me feel for a second the shock of recognition, the jarring out-of-context smile that reminded you--and then too I got a little bit teary at the idea, you capture it so well, that you can leave behind the dark places you once inhabited, but must carry a bit of it always with you, like it or not...

"I silently give thanks to a God I do not believe in..." potent stuff.

Jimmy Bastard said...

DQ: I'm disappointed that your visit to Glesga was sullied by what happened to you, and can only offer up the fact that scumbags exist in every city across the world.

Did you wander away fae the city centre, perhaps onto one of the housing schemes maybe?

Feel free to wander around anywhere you like in my blog, the darkness surrounding the words hide very little danger for visitors. Who knows, their might even be a wee drap o' something strang at the end of the tour.

Map: I used to dread that feeling you get on a Sunday night, knowing that Monday morning fast approaches. These days I allow myself a late start, and enough time for wee cup of tea and a read of the papers before I begin my toil.

I still look forward to that first pint on a Friday neet after the working week is complete.

Nothing even comes close!

Jimmy Bastard said...

Leah, the door is always open for you hen. Come on in and feel my virtual arm around your shoulder whenever the need arises.

It was a shock seeing a face so mullered, that was once so evil. He would have recognised me the moment I stepped into that bar, but he still kept his distance as his memories also must have reminded him of another time and place.

We may have once followed a similiar lifestyle, and picked up a few battle scars along the way, but the main difference is that I sleep at night. My conscience is untroubled, my debt long since paid.
I noticed a crucifix beneath his clothing, so hopefully he has found a crutch to help him through the dark nights. Me.. I found a way of turning on a light, so the darkness of guilt never visits me whenever I have time to reflect.

DQ's Windmill said...

Thanks Jimmy, but our memories of Scotland are untarnished.
(They broke into our rental car, which was parked in an overnight parking lot - funny, along with other things, they took one shoe, which the Scottish police eventually sent back to me! It was a pair of Swedish clogs I had bought in England, and thankfully I saved the one, just in case, and after a few months, finally had a matching set again:)

Jimmy Bastard said...

DQ, Holy mother of God, some eejit stole a Swedish clog fae England? There's no accounting for taste hen.

Pisces Iscariot said...

"Drippy took satisfaction in the drawing of blood merely to boost his somewhat serious lack of self worth"
An astute summing up of the psychology of depravity - another great piece Jimmy

Kevin Musgrove said...

Another carefully-woven tapestry Jimmy. Time isn't kind to many of us but it seems to keep a particular retribution for the spiteful.

Bock the Robber said...

Grim, but somehow familiar.

Jimmy Bastard said...

Bock, life is grim... it's how you deal with it that counts.

B.E. Earl said...

By the by, I finally wrote about the famous Irishman I am related to over at my joint.

Ron Knee said...

B.E.Earl
Ah niver knew that that ony Irishman ever played the blues like you do... OR like B.B. King did.....

Harlequin said...

marvelous!!
I can relate to the too many sides of this story... and after a lifetime of not walking away until the last one was empty, it is now nice to be grateful for rueful wistfulness...

wonderful detail and sensory invitations; thanks

Jimmy Bastard said...

H, you're welcome.

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